Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
your relationship is my greatest fear realized.
samanthat jones of sex and the city said this on todays episode. it caught my attention taking it away from the crafts i was making (will post pictures later), and made me think.
its sad to say, but i couldnt agree more with sam..
some of my friends are in what i believe to be the weirdest of relationships. and yes, many of them, my biggest fears. but they arnt all the same type. thats, possibly, what scares me the most; relationships differ from couple to couple and i fear many, if not most, types of these relationships.
of course there are those who have been dating forever, get along all the time, never fight, finish each others sentences, and dedicate songs to one another. lovely. but is it real love? kind, patient, unadulterated, true love? maybe so. or maybe not. maybe its me being cynical, but i often think it is just one person giving everything up for the other. i mean can two people really agree on everything? and is that how a relationship should be? that dosent even sound like any fun. at what point do/should people push aside their own feelings, dreams, even mannerisms to please someone else? thats not what love is about, right? it irritates me.
this type of relationship is my greatest fear realized.
on the opposite end of the spectrum, there are those who never want to settle into one relationship but instead spend their time playing the field and sleeping around. its both a risky and riskay way to live life. every month, these same people pray for their flow and hope to steer clear of the ghaneria. i have to admit, i loove the stories that come from these one night stands and random hook-ups. it happens to everyone. but it just seems to be so much funnier when it happens to others. it could be that they enjoy testing the waters. or maybe it is a fear of commitment. it could even be a "daddy issue." whatever it is, are they happy? do certain people enjoy waking up in a different bed every morning?
this type of relationship is my greatest fear realized.
some people spend all their time looking for love. all they want is to meet that special someone and call the end all be all of their love lives. they seem to be waiting to "start life" with another person but in the mean time, through the vigorous soul mate search, are there many opportunities that are being missed out on? imho, you cant hurry love. you really do just have to wait. it will happen when we are each ready. maybe mr./mrs. right have yet to come along because you still need to figure things out about yourself before someone else is thrown into the mix. i believe that all thing happen for a reason. even love. so why spend your time being desperate and even depressing? or are they just hopeful?this type of relationship is my greatest fear realized.
so i wonder ..
does anyone realize that we live life through our experiences with the people we meet along the way? and doesnt settling down so early in life, or dating the same person all throughout college, limit many of these experiences? and will they look back with some regret, knowing that they stayed in on a saturday night to watch a movie or plan their wedding, just to avoid all the distractions from sexy, college singles at j's bistro? will they wonder what life would have been like if they had dated someone else, or no one at all?
and will the people who are out hunting pray each weekend at j's, look back and wonder what life would have been like if they had decided not to be such a commitment-phobe and decided to spend more time with that one person they always wondered about? would their time be better spent snuggling in bed with a certain someone you trust more than anyone?
who can say what the best route to take is? the world may never know. but i do know one things for sure; the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. and if you can find someone to love the you that you love, well, thats just fabulous.
all day today, bri and i were trying to get everyone to talk about their biggest annoyances in life. we were more into this little "game," if you will, than others, but this is what i came up with. just in case yall do care. and im sure you do.
- when people call that german town, south of san marcos, home of wurstfest, new braunsssfels instead of the correct way, new braunfels. one s. on the same subject, i often hear people use the word perfect where perfectly should be used. that sends shivers up my spine. oh and when people pronounce the l in salmon or the t in often. bri gets aggravated when people say nucular for nuclear. i cant say i notice that one.
- voicemails. i never check them. dont bother leaving one.
- imho, toilet paper should roll over the top instead of coming from the bottom of the roll. when it does roll towards the wall then out the bottom, i usually flip it around so that it comes out of the top. rude?
- okay, this one really gets my blood boiling and i deal with it on a daily basis. biting forks. or any other metal utensil. the sound it horrifyingly. just dont do it! promise? (name that movie)
- quoting movies. kidding.
- junk mail. forwarded email and texts. unnecessary snail mail. d) all of the above
- ewww. i absolutely hate texts from random numbers and then they never tell you who they are. that makes me wonder for days. i know. sounds a little obsessive but im just verrry curious.. p.s. this just happened to me. "he guesses i just didnt like him enough to save his number in my phone. so hes not going to tell me."
- loud base. ughh it hurts my head, ears, and makes my heart feel like its going to beat right out of my chest. and wow, its so unnecessary.
- blue tooth headsets. really? you need that tiny devise to talk on the phone at all hours of the day? just hold it so that others are aware you arnt talking to them. or no one at all.
- table texters!! i also deal with this on a daily basis. but its more like and hourly basis. i haaaaate when you are out to dinner with someone, and they spend the whole time on their freaking phone. annoying. i really dont like obsessive texters in general. sometimes i fall victim to this crime but i hate myself for it too. its just that i want to know what their conversation is about and i get a better idea of it when people just talk out loud, on the phone. or blue tooth headset. at least i get to hear half of the convo. understandable right?
- "wash me" written on dirty cars. not really, but this really bugs cameron. and now i just think about it when i see it, and its starting to bug me too. youll notice now. its just so obnoxious.
- bunny ears. grow up. and dont f up my pictures!
thats a lot of things to be annoyed by. maybe im about to start my period?
Monday, November 17, 2008
Sunday, November 16, 2008
2. honey mustard
3. eye lashes
4. tyler candle company
5. lip gloss
7. polka dots
10. lakes, rivers, oceans, pools
11. nail polish
12. new cds
15. themed parties
16. bubble baths
17. fresh flowers
19. license plates with meaning
24. 80’s music
26. roller blades
30. string lights
31. good pens
32. claw foot tubs
34. slumber parties
36. roller coasters
38. old notes
41. exposed brick
42. diet coke
43. club houses
44. celebrity gossip
49. good conversation
50. hypothetical questions
52. playing pranks
53. well spoken folks
54. perfect eyebrows
55. day dreams
56. birth order
57. live music
59. rainy day naps
60. july 4th
61. thats what she said
62. chick flicks
63. clear skin
65. bags: purses, make up, luggage, weekenders, etc.
69. hot tubs
70. inside jokes
71. wodden floors
73. bare feet
74. water balloons
77. home videos
78. tourists towns
81. high thread count sheets
82. crushed ice
86. cold nights, forcing tons of blankets in bed
88. happy hour
89. people watching
94. photo booths
95. charm bracelets
96. bed and breakfasts
98. local businesses
99. random acts of kindness
100. finding money
Friday, November 7, 2008
tuesday was election day. so kacey and i decided to go out alone. everyone else backed out. we thought our night could be annoying because i was complaining about tortillas the whole way there number 1, and number 2 we were going out alone on a tuesday. on our way to our first stop, the green parrot, we passed cafe on the square and the was a little democratic party complete with balloons and about 11 people ha ha. anyway when we got to parrot, kacey said "look" and pointed to the tv, and there it was; barack obama elected president. no one said a thing. no one had a reaction. everyone in the bar just starred. it was weird. oh and the song touch my body was on. that was weird too..
so we met up with some friends and headed to js. yes taxi was playing and yes we made eye contact. oh and i found out he is italian. the everyone loves an italian boy shirt gave it away. i wonder if hes 100%? js was nothing. so we had a drink and moved right along to nephews. a guy with a sty in his eye bought us shots. we hoped he wasnt spreading the sty. we realized that it really is a verrry small world. we also realized that guys feelings are more important than best friends. and kacey kept making me die laughing. we left there at midnight and then we got excited that in the future we get to leave at 2 like everyone else in the free speaking world. thank god for new laws. yippee!!
at my house, kacey continued with her humor. we talked for a long time. demonstrated some stuff and called it a night. overall, it was so fun!!
everyone went to the square for some good old fashion fun. russel was excited about crout dogs at wurst fest and jimmy was excited about his new relationship with bri. ha ha jimmy never really said that but i could sense things. and he was drunk although he did not admit it. no sober person would pull out those dance moves..
so wednesday was fun. it was also typical. not in a bad way though.
wurst fest round one
once a year there is 10 day festival in new braunfels, to salute sausage!! it is the excitement of november. everyone goes and everyone is blitzed. all you do is (raise hell) drink beer, eat bratwursts and croat dogs (ew, i know), and dance to german music. i had the time of my life. really though, i did.
a whole group of us (marcus de sean, jimmy, kacey, austin, jason, susan, big kal, brent, andrew, myself, and some others) met at marcus de seans house (it was my fist time there and it is sooo cool) and then caravaned to new braunfels. we made a quick stop at a liquor store because we knew beer was going to be expensive! its like 17 dollars a pitcher. in san marcos, we are used to 2 dollar pitchers. quite a difference. so we got the goods and before i knew it, i was in a neighbor hood. i wasnt really that clear on the plans and apparently we were going to a small party first? well the party was fun mainly because of darts, gossip, drinks, double toilets, ( i know!! again one bathroom, two johns. we took advantage. dont worry.) glow stick bracelets, new friends, and the excitement of wurst fest!once we got to wurst fest, my memory gets a little foggy, but i know it was eventful. we parked the navigator..or is it an esclade? i can never remember, thanks to my five dollar donation that jimmy had no shame in taking, and the night was already tooo much. kacey and i reallllllly had to go to the bathroom and we had quite a hike ahead of us. we also wanted to take some vodka in or something? im not sure. but i do know that we were left alone in the parking lot to fin for ourselves. we quickly found a bathroom. it wasnt the most sanitary, but we felt like we were camping anyways. then i can remember us like running (yes, running) up and down a street with a bridge or a valley or somethingg. we still arnt sure why.
so we finally got into the gates and weve come to the conclusion that that was the last time we saw each other. so thats cute. and safe. i ran into a bunch of people i know and got completely "rowdie" with them. i saw bri and she asked me who i was with. i replied with no one, im by myself. and i was. just texting, "where" 18 times to kacey and walking by myself. and i was completely okay with it. mario assures me this is not true. and that i hung out with him. thank god! and he tells me we had a bunch of fun. so thats good. i quickly found the dance floor where polka music was loud and proud. i "grinded." and that wasnt the only poor decision i made all night. whatev. i was also telling everyone to vote against brent. what ever the hell that means. and that kyle was a hott mess when, in fact i was the epitome of hott mess.
so, kaceys phone broke or ran out of batteries or got lost or something. and after my time on the dance floor, people were ready to leave and kacey was no where to be found. we waited a long time at the front gate, but no kacey. so like good friends, we left her. i knew she would find a ride with a friend or a rapist, but i still didnt feel good about our decision. turns out she did find a friend and arrived home safe, sound, and sober. no. not sober.
meanwhile, jimmy turned into my protective older brother. but i was thankful for him. and i asked him if he had fun and he was pissed because i was a drunken idiot and he had to drive me home. he said he didnt have that much fun. oh and when i got home, i realized that kacey had my purse (hopefully) and therefore my keys, money, and lip gloss. tear.
all was well the next day. and the stories of our night were already laughable!
i went to the square for like an hour. i saw some friends from high school, but nothing extra special happened. and taxi wasnt playing at js. bummmer.
i kinda started my new job at bath jumkie. i spent the day at my managers house bottling shea butter. from there, i went to see the ceren family girls and the new baby boy, tyler. they are all so cute! we decided to go to wurstfest again because we didnt remember thursday and it only happens once a year...
i had a blast saturday too! i met a group of guys/men that were lebanese!! i feel that. they let me try their funnel cake and the facial surgeon of the group said that i had a pretty face. yes, this should be a compliment, but the only thing he didnt mention was my body. he maybe should have reworded and said "youre gorgeous." also, one was a car dealer and totally offered to "hook me up" on a new car. ha ha. while we were walking through a crowd, i proudly stand up was being played and a lady got pissed at us for walking around during that song. ew. its just a country song! i met a dutch man named bob who taught me german and bought me a beer that tasted like skittles. and a lady tried to fit a too small chicken hat on my head. just as she was placing it on, her wrinkly hand breezed by my nose and i shouted "your hands smell like plastic!" kacey almost peed her pants, i was embarassed that came out of my mouth, and she was probably sad. jimmy spilt an entire pitcher on himself immediately after purchasing it for 17 dollars. it was freezing and i was in short sleeves! i was thankful that i wasnt soaked in shiner like my friends. the night was verrrrrrry fun. i mean i had the time of my life. but, seriously.
well jimmy and bri left early. it was a wise decission because they kept calling each other baby. gag. but they left with out taking some friend home. so mellissa got the pleassure of driving them around nb to their destination. but keaton and pat got the pleasure of riding in the bed of a truck on a freezing night around nb. win win situation! since we had to take them home anyway, we decided to go in for some more fun. and more fun we did have.
sunday bloody sunday
it wasnt bloody. it was fun though. i went to lunch and then to see the movie role models. i gotta say, nothing is funnier than a little black kid dropping the f bomb every five seconds. two thumbs up. not really. but it was a good movie with lost of funny parts. and sean william scott was in it. who dosent love him?! he probally should have made the cut on my list..
my weekend was amazing and i am still obsessed with it. ill put pics up later.
have a great week,
p.s.- sorry the blogs have been getting soo long...
Sunday, November 2, 2008
probably my first love. and every other girl my ages. yes or no? i dont know when i first fell for him but i do know that i fell hard. it could have been his role in home improvement. or maybe it was the voice of simba that did me in. all i know is that my favorite movie for a long time was wild america. nothing gets better that devon sawa, scott bairstow, and jtt. there all just so adventurous. what a turn on.
i remember, my sister had a poster of this teenie bopper star in her closet. we went through a phase of kissing it before going to sleep at night. .. i just realized how creepy that was.
sometimes i get reallly lucky and see him out. other than at j's. my heart beats fast. i get weak in the knees. and i instantly start sweating. i feel like its me seeing justin timberlake or something. i told him all this once. i was drunk. it should have been embarrassing for me, but i had liquid confidence. oh and he kissed my on the cheek twice that night!!
jimmy swears that i also told him i would have sex with him. i dont remember that. it sounds forward. and it is. it also sounds like i would probably get the herpes or the chlamydia from him seeing as, im pretty sure he has slept with half the population of san marcos. he gets around. and with good reason.
and yes, i stole this picture from his myspace.
i cant exactly pin point the reason i love him. its a collaboration of his deep texas accent, his carefree style of life, and his sweet, sweet southern charm.
and he is so easy on the eyes.
i know, everyone is obsessed with prince william of wales but heart belongs to harry. william is too perfect. he seems to have everything together. and to me, thats no fun. and also, there is waaay too much pressure on him. our marriage would be stressful. who doesnt love a prince. and even more, one that has no shame in snorting vodka?! he should be the epitome of class but he definitely has a wild side. call me a home wrecker, but i know im better for harry than chelsy is.
besides, our marriage would come complete with fame, fortune, british accents, dazzling parties, and the best china known to man.
good lord. season 2 and 6 of big brother. i dont know exactly how it happened, but this one hit me like a big, yellow school bus (name that movie). will kirby is one of the cockiest people on earth (i first typed "the cockiest people i know" but i dont know him. thats sad.) and the biggest asshole to ever hit reality tv. and i am in love with him. how typical.
my current love. its hard to say whether its john krasinski in general, or just jim halpert. i think its jim. i looove him.
i have nothing at all bad to say about him. i mean hes witty, laid back, he is always optimistic, extremely thoughtful (yankee swap.. need i say more), level headed, adventurous, kind, respectful, he doesnt take himself too seriously, cute, and the list goes on. i love the interaction between pam and him too. although i wish i was pam, i just cant hate her. they are perfect for each other and therefore, everyone who watches the office is obsessed with him. or andy. hes a catch too. ha ha. oh and i have to thank kacey for introducing him to me. what a little match maker huh?!
im a huge fan of sex and the city. it may be surprising that chris north didnt make this list, but its because im not a "big" (pardon the pun) fan of his. anyway, back to the point, in one episode he says to carrie,"in the end, you just want to be with the one who makes you laugh." this is totally how i feel about jim. pam probably feels this way too. bummer.
kidding. i tried getting into the twilight series but couldnt get through chapter one. maybe its because im not a big reader (i wish). or maybe its because its about a pale girl moving in with her dad after her parents divorce. she likes to be alone. and she falls in love with a vampire. i dont know .. that just doesnt sound like me. why i even tried to like it is so beyond me.